Don't know why, but I seem to be in some kind of daze, haze, funk. . . not sure what to call it, but I do not like it.
Maybe it's the dark cloudy days we've had lately, doing their number on me, I don't know. . . but I do not like what I see happening to my mood and my thoughts. I seem to be having so much trouble just staying focused this week.
I've heard people tell others, "just snap out of it", but THAT just does not always work.
Weighing heavy on my mind, are several prayer requests, and this funk hanging over me, is keeping me from doing what I need to be doing for these dear loved ones and friends, I need to be in prayer, but I don't know how to describe what happens to me every time I set my mind to pray. I begin a prayer, and start out fine, but all of a sudden I find myself, trying so hard to keep myself from getting distracted. My mind wanders, and flips and flops, and almost seems to run from the task before me. I try so hard to capture my thoughts, discipline myself, I do make it through some of my prayer list, but I cannot remember the last time I have completed a prayer this past week. It's discouraging, and makes me feel awful.
Have you ever counted how many times people have asked for prayer in any given day? Week? If you have contacts through email or facebook, and are like me, you probably have several people share prayer needs, and I do tell them I will pray with them because I want to and mean to. I most often do right then, when the need is made known. A short little prayer, "Lord, please help in this situation, You know what is needed, and You know how to accomplish this, I trust in you..."
However, I find myself not continueing like I should, I keep these requests close in thought, and do send up an occassional prayer every now and then, but when it comes to really setting aside a special time just for praying through my whole prayer list, I find that my mind cannot stay focused long enough to follow through completely. It's extremely frustrating, and I find myself being mad at myself for not being able to finish.
So, this thought came to mind today, ". . .when is the last time you've asked others to pray for you?" I feel so weak, tired, sort of gloomy, and think I'm in need of prayer.
There it is, if you happen to be reading this, please pray for me. Please pray that I will be able to rise above this mood, and not let it hold me down. That I will lean on Christ, and not lean on my own strength. Whatever the Holy Spirit lays on your heart, please pray.
I know this isn't huge, but I think I have just realized how important it is to recognize our need to have others pray for us, it's ok to ask for prayer.
It really is ok. "Bear ye, one another's burdens and so fulfill the Law of Christ..." Galatians 6:2
